Update: still unpublished. Have many rejections. Still have faith in the process. I could still use some helpful feedback, understanding that the agents and the industry is cold, but I need to be able to improve. I will keep moving forward. 

Query

How does one send the perfect query? I've been looking for hours, days, weeks even for the ferfect person to send a letter to asking for them to read my stuff. I'm not too naive to understand the process but I do question it. I'm concerned with the cross genre, fanfiction, triggering content of my story. I believe however that this was the best way, the most authentic way to describe my experiences. Should I change it all and start again or wait for the star crossed agent/publisher to find me or vice versa? 🤔 

 10-15 Submissions, 1 rejection. Worried about the cross genre style... it's fanfiction, non-fiction, and horror all the while. It's A Child Called It, Hannibal Lecter, and myself. All rolled into 110 pages of raw and rough truths, emotions, and relief. There isn't much more I can say. 

 That's it. I submitted my query to one agent. I am terrified and excited at the same time, as most authors are at this point in the process. I am open to feedback and excited to get some sort of response regardless of a book deal. 

 This room is special. It doesn't have a bed, toilet, or sink. It has a large stainless steel medical table in the center of the room. The straps are nylon, like dog collars. One on each corner and one adjustable strap in the center for the midsection of the exhibit.

First round complete.